Written by heart

Death looks at me every day where love once lived. To see you like... this breaks my heart 💔 because all the life energy has been sucked out of you. You're too alive to die but too sick to live. What kind of irony is that? What an injustice! The last few years we've been struggling to survive all the energy, hope and pain we've felt to help you survive, was it all for nothing? How can life be so cruel? From a second we had to say goodbye The hope and the belief that everything will be better went through this door with you. 10 days of fear, crying, breaking, rebuilding, finding new courage... were the worst I have ever experienced.  And all my fears came true. The door opened and the Death looked at me. With a sunken face, an emaciated body and deep lines of suffering. Hardly any strength to walk, no energy to breathe. With every second you walk along the tunnel and the last spark of hope goes with you. All we have left is a miracle that everything will still turn out for ...

 burning building  like a match,  like a secret a room full of dust I burn like bodies,  like skin paper-thin wings  photos on the walls hanging,  lifeless memories on a string like groins and chests cuts  and fevers  I burn i burn I burn everything turned to nothing woman,  vision, whisper thing, smoke, gone and the flames are so quiet you wouldn't know a thing  if I wasn't the brightest light  this glowing city  Has ever seen

 The art of expression TO EXPRESS oneself is but innate Yet steady and clutch close this colossal gate that walls away the gush from your lips and fingers. Pocket the picture of that moment's linger For trust you me, your vows will bet and find justice as you steer sure, pure under the wild magnet of PRACTICE. And when soon, your pen's tune or your young tongue grabs the thread of those thought's yet unsung, you'll un-see melancholy and wholly jump jolly as the perils of labor will kiss alive your patient hobby It shall put rest to dry sorrow, and quench the soul's fate as you wise sire, swallow the fire of its desire in perfect taste Notice in t background, how t/sharp notes of orchestral score showers not a single screech in its reach to the sound fore For in silence, patience and cadence to virtue over haste you now wallow in divinity, pleased by how you ARTICULATE

 TODAY I WANT TO WRITE SOMETHING WHICH IS CLOSE TO MY HEART BUT I NEVER SAID SO I'M SAYING TODAY, A BOY DO UNDERSTANDS YOU EVEN IN YOUR WORST SITUATIONS, HE WILL BE THERE FOR YOU EVEN WHEN YOU HAVE SHOUTED ON HIM, BUT A BOY GETS ATTACHED TO YOU EMOTIONALLY SO SOMETIMES HE CAN ALSO BE NOT PERFECT SO GIVE HIM TIME BEFORE SAYING ALL MEN ARE SAME, A MAN NEEDS ONLY ONE THINGS WHICH IS ONE SHOULD BE BESIDE HIM, YOU CAN DO ONE THING JUST SAY, I'M WITH YOU. THIS SENTENCE CAN HEAL ALL WOUNDS, SO TRY IT BEFORE SAYING ANYTHING BAD OR DOING BREAK UP, BECAUSE HE IS ALREADY IN PAIN AND YOU ARE GIVING HIM MORE PAIN

I close my eyes and imagine... ...as we sit together on a park bench and let the warm rays of sunshine shine on our faces. We hold hands and sit very close together so that nothing can separate us. We look at each other dreamily and tell each other stories from our past together. A smile steals onto our faces. We don't perceive the noises around us. Because at this moment only one thing counts and that is WE! Knowing that we could have a future together warms my heart and makes me happy. It gives me a goal worth fighting for. But it also makes me a little sad, because unfortunately I still have to wait for this future... But isn't it always the case that you have to wait what feels like an eternity for the best things that happen to you in life? And the wait was more than worth it, because you got exactly what you always wanted. In this case love for life. Your reason why you wake up every morning with a smile and why you fall asleep happy every night. Isn't it worth waitin...

 SOME MEMORIES ARE RUTHLESS, THEY ARE STRONG EVEN WHEN THEY'RE GONE, THAT THEY BREAK YOU WHEN YOU'RE AT YOUR BEST THEY MAKE YOU FEEL THE ACHING SO DEEP DOWN THAT YOUR BONES FEEL LIKE THEY'RE BURNING AND THE MERCILESS ACHE DOESN'T STOP. IT'S GOT NO REMORSE IT'S JUST HERE TO ADD MORE TO YOUR EXCRUCIATING PAIN AND WHEN YOU ALLOW THESE MEMORIES TO SEEP THROUGH YOUR CRACKS YOU ALLOW YOURSELF TO FEEL FEEL ALL THE HURTING AND ALL THE AGONY BACK

 weave into me your histories folktales myths breathe into me your fears feats silence when you graze my fingertip let me take in all you've ever touched when your anger simmers the steam burns your sadness on me the loud laughter in the morning is a song I've tried to learn don't worry my love I won't steal it away.  sometimes my heart sinks in the middle of the night in the middle of night the earth stands still i tell the moon every story of you give the moon all that you've his within me then it lights up and let's me sleep

While doing anything in our day to day life we often think that what is the purpose of doing all this? Are we really learning something? Or is everything we are doing in vain? The truth is that every single activity in our daily life teaches us something and we learn a lot. Even in our leisure time we are learning the importance of time. When we are facing any problem we are gaining the experience from it. And in my opinion we can learn the best from our past experiences. Learning from past experience helps us to avoid the mistake we made the last time and to do the given task with more productivity. Let us relate this by taking a small example of a seed. Initially it's buried inside the earth. And even after all the harsh surroundings it transforms into a little sapling and that sapling grows into a big tree. What we learnt from this? It teaches us that every harsh situation takes our test of survival. And after surviving every test we learn from it. And what we learn is what we c...

 A love that demands demons. A love that is not comfortable. The one that dwells under thorns. Stays deep into the seas. But prevail all the storms. The kind of love that is not impeccable yet hold no boundaries. The one that demands no shelter. And is filled with utmost faith. It knows no forever. The one that knows only to stay. The one that has learnt through life.

What would you do? Would you sacrifice your liver or kidney if you were asked? Would you rather go blind or not hear anymore? Would you amputate an arm or a leg? Rather the right or the left? Would you sacrifice your brother or sister? Would you leave your mother or father? Would you stop eating or stop breathing? Would you never go to sleep again or die now? Would you cut yourself off from everyone to support world peace or not? Would you give up your true love to make it possible for other people? Would you... If you had to choose what would you do? Not an easy decision right? Because everything is essential to life that makes YOU. Everything is necessary to make you happy. Because all of that makes you special and enriches your life. That's why I wish you that you never have to choose. Because a person is guaranteed to ALWAYS be injured and that is YOU! Because inevitably part of your purpose in life will be taken away from you. That will make you unhappy in the long run. So... ...