I'm only human just like you

 I thought I would be better,

but the cold breeze somehow sneaked inside my sweater. 

I tremble less because of the cold,

but more because my eyelashes keep getting wetter.

As time passes by I don't want to pass as well, 

I look for happiness but no one has any for me to sell.

It is hard to feign a smile,

I went for a walk in my psyche and I guess crossed more than a few miles.

Confused where I am,

and where I would be mentally and emotionally in a while.

Somedays I want to take a breather, somedays I just want to pause,

but time is always dire and against me,

and I find myself lost,

because I haven't been able to take control and hence, mend my flaws.

Sometimes I want to start over, 

the relationships, the friendships and have a chance to make much more clever choices,

but I'm made out of mistakes,

mistakes that leave me with bitter memories of betrayal that

I wanted to believe are not true; 

but they indeed are true,

and the way they scream inside my head just takes away the strength from my own voice.

I ask myself often, what can I do to turn back time?

I get no answers,

because sometimes there are no answers. Believing everything will be alright isn't enough, 

and there is always something I can't undo,

because I'm only human just like you.

Written by - Aaryan gupta