Humanity vs Future

Life changes very quickly the direction you want to go. You have ideas about how your life should go. But everything is different from one second to the next. It's nothing like it used to be ... 

A few years ago I could still imagine having children, being a loving mother who only wants the best for her children. But for a few years now, I am no longer sure whether I would like to have my children in this world. There is so much war, so many diseases, so much misery in the world in which I don't want my children to grow up. 

Humanity is becoming more and more brutal and selfish. There is hardly any love and security, trust and acceptance left. Everyone thinks only of himself and how he can get the best out of himself. Everyone is a lone fighter and no longer wants to belong to a community. And that's sad.

Because I want to be able to offer my children all of this. A loving home, without fear and prejudice. So that they can develop and develop into the person they want to be.But will society be just as open and loving with my children? Can someone guarantee me that they won't be mistreated, lied to, and ripped off? I don't want any of that for my family, my friends and maybe my future children. 

Age makes you more thoughtful. One is aware of everything that is happening in the world. All the experiences you have over the years change a person, change your point of view.  Usually you become more skeptical, find it difficult to trust and become emotionally cooler. But it also has its good points. You grow with every obstacle, you always encounter situations positively and you don't let anything get you down and discourage you.  

I would say that I am the person I would like to be right now. I am strong inside, have my own opinion and also represent them. Got a good job and people who love me unconditionally. All of this makes me happy and makes me proud. Because I can look in the mirror every day and I am proud of the woman I have become.  

Of course, I also have wishes and goals that I strive for. That would make me happier But for now I'm happy with what I have. Everything comes in time. And when fate has provided a loving and loyal man for me who will bring me children, I will accept them with thanks and proud and do my best to protect them from the evil in this world.  

But I will not force anything, I will let life take its course. It will take me where I belong. I believe in that! 

Written by Alina